Streaking

Oh yeah, baby.  I’m a streaker.  I’ve been streaking for six days now.  So streaky of me, no?  I marveled today to my mom (who is here with my dad and sick like crazy) that I’ve been running six whole days in a row now and I’m not feeling any bad side effects.  Usually I get to about day three of running in a row and I start to get all concerned and feeling like I’ve ‘earned’ a break.  I don’t know why I need to ‘earn’ a break or why I think I need a break when I’m feeling just fine.  I suppose that’s what my lesson is supposed to be from this experiment: my body can handle it.    

I remember when I first started running and wanting to stop.  My lungs are on fire!  My legs are sore!  My heart is beating out of control!  It was all true, but did I need to stop?  No.  I learned that I could push myself past all of that.  I learned that I could run a whole minute, a whole mile, a whole 5k, 10k, 15k, half marathon…  All because I decided to try to push beyond my limits to see what would happen, and what happened was that I got stronger.  Consistently.  I showed myself that yes, I can.  Why a running streak would be any different for me is anyone’s guess.  I’m realizing that I’ve built up all these walls for myself, designating what I can and can’t do, and some of the stuff I think I can’t do I can.  Can you see what I’m saying?  ๐Ÿ˜‰ Seriously, though, it’s getting to the point where if I think I can’t do something then I just feel like I should probably try it out.

  
It shouldn’t surprise me, then, that I’m fine, six days in.  Great, in fact.  My legs feel fine.  My shoulders feel solid.  My back feels strong.  I’m not overly hungry or tired or anything.  The next day when I do go for my run, everything feels fine and normal- no different than when I skip a day or so.  Actually, I’m wondering if this might be more effective…  Anyhow, my non-doctor opinion is that all is good in the hood.  I’m digging running every day and like the no excuses kind of attitude I’ve taken with myself about it.  I’m considering continuing the streak and keep thinking to myself that if I miss a single day I’ll have to start over, so do I even want to stop?  One more thing to be manic about, I suppose.  Today we did a mixture of trail/street/neighborhood running for a nice 5 and some change mile loop.  We ended up getting lost around Bastyr (the college that shares space with St. Edward Park) and found a ropes course that just hangs out up in the trees there permanently.  It made me want to invest in some equipment to ascend it!  Anyhow, I’m loving the streak and am so glad I started one!  

(Also loving my new pink and purple long sleeved running shirts I got at Target on clearance this week!!!)

Neighborly Karma

I spend a lot of time on the streets in my direct neighborhood.  If you look at my running routes, they’re usually pretty similar because I have a tendency to run the same exact routes quite often.  I live in a neighborhood with a lot of people like me, too.  We live on a street with a walkway that is well-used by walkers, runners and everyone in between.  In fact, when I first started hitting our streets, I’d pass people and we’d smile bashfully and remark that here we are on the reliable loop, again!  And again!  And again!  

  
But as with any neighborhood there are those people.  You know the ones: you see them coming toward you and as you gear up to smile, wave and give a friendly hello, you notice they are looking everywhere around but at you.  Then when you pass one another they don’t even look at you.  Even thought you’re smiling, waving and saying hello!  And it’s weird.  Weird enough that Bradley and I have gotten a little bit up in people’s grills about it.  We will say hello, then hi, then follow it up with a wave and usually people will step outside of themselves to respond like a fellow human who is interested in having friendly, neighborly relations, but it’s shocking, to me, how many people refuse to acknowledge my humanity by returning a smile or friendly greeting.  I know it sounds silly, but these are my neighbors.  These are the people who I am supposed to be able to turn to if I have an emergency, and they won’t say hello.  I think that’s weird and that’s why we are relentless.  I want to feel like I know and kind of trust (a little) the people I run the streets with and see almost daily.

Today, however, I learned a bit of a karmic lesson.  There’s this one dude- tall and skinny, just like I like – I like ’em tall-n-skinny like a beanpole, in case you were wondering.  Anyhow, this guy has been walking his dog on our reliable loop for years, at least as long as I have been running, and never once has he returned my greeting.  Not one smile, not one glance, he crosses the street when I see him coming, his dog has behaved aggressively…  You get the idea.  His dog is a little cute, but wild, thing and he has a nice look about him, so every time we pass him we say hello.  We wave.  We smile.  We put it all out there in hopes that one day he’ll break and return the smile.  But today I was a bit grumpy when I went out for a run and today I didn’t feel like bending to his rules.  Today when I saw that dude I was all like, “I’m not moving out of his way and I’m not saying hello to him today.  He can just be his jerky self without my barometer to measure it with, SO THERE!”  So I approached and stared straight ahead.  I didn’t smile, I didn’t wave and I didn’t even look at him.  And this time?  That guy smiled and said hello to me.  He didn’t cross the street.  He didn’t ignore me.  I didn’t initiate- it just came out of him.  I ran past him in shock, passed him too late to even return the smile.  I was so shocked that I wanted to turn around and tell him thank you for that gesture of neighborliness.  Thank you for massaging my ego by seeing me.  But I didn’t.
I was ashamed in that moment.  I was reminded of this Mister Rogers quote:

  
In that moment I didn’t choose kindness and I undid all the years of effort we have put in with that man.  In that moment I chose to give him a dose of his karma, but he chose to give me a dose of mine in return.  More than anything, really I wish that, instead, I had bypassed that yucky yin and yang cycle and put nothing but positivity into the world.  That we had both passed, smiled and individually celebrated what just happened between two neighbors.  He put himself out there and I ran right over him.  I ran over myself, too.  Usually when I cross paths with that guy I see him around the bend later, so I hoped that would be the case today.  I ran a bit faster in hopes of catching him and saying hello, but it didn’t happen.  You can bet, though, that next time I see him I’m going to start the whole process anew, and I’ll definitely remember the lesson: choose kindness, choose kindness and choose kindness.  Always.

Trail Run Tuesday

  
Run, run, run, as fast as you can!  Today we hit the trail in a big, bad way for running streak, day four.  I set no fewer than four mileage trackers as I headed toward the trailhead at St. Edward Park.  I swear, I’m turning more and more into one of those annoying gearhead people, but I love data so much and each app does something a little bit different, so I have to, right?  That said, at the end of today’s run I was able to see a bit more clearly which ones I like.  Mostly, I like a fairly accurate GPS.  So far, Map My Run and Strava are way better than Nike.  Nike showed that I ran only two miles today while the other apps were within .1 of a mile from one another, reading between 3.1-3.2.  Nike, no matter how much I love some of the features, isn’t going to make the cut.  Phew.  One less button to push before I begin the run!  LOL!

 

Today was a lot of fun.  Usually when we hit the trail we have little kids trailing behind us and have to pace along with them.  When we don’t have kids I like to go as fast as possible!  Trail running is more like cross training, in my opinion.  I’m climbing hills, ducking branches, scrambling up and down stairs, jumping over puddles, logs and stumps…  You get the idea.  It’s way different than running down the street.  So when I PR on the St. Ed’s trail I get really excited, and today I did exactly that- I got a personal record!  The trail is steep, muddy, it has lots of twists, turns and roots sticking out of the ground.  I’m astounded at that 11:19 mileage!  Furthermore, when I looked at my times compared to other women runners on that trail, I’m number 14 out of 32 women- I’m in the top 50% of ALL the women on Strava who have run that trial, regardless of age!  That made me feel pretty good- I’ve come a long way since the first time I went on that trail.  By the end of that first hike I was having an anxious reaction, hysterical and almost crying because the trail was so steep, my knees were so weak, my stamina so low and my weight so high that it was terrifying.  I thought I would fall, twist an ankle and break off at the knee.  It didn’t happen, thankfully, and I’ve only continued to improve.  Today was a glorious one! 

If you’re wondering about how my body is feeling after four days in a row of running, so far so good.  My streak hasn’t impacted me negatively.  I haven’t run more than four miles in one day and I think that had a lot to do with it- keeping lower miles.  I’ve only run 12 miles over the past four days and I’m feeling good.  I’m planning on doing a six on Thursday or Friday and a nine on Sunday, right before I head back to school for my last 50 days of the year.  I like the running streak.  It’s a lot like making my 10,000 steps per day- making it just a ‘thing I do’ makes it a lot more accessible and non negotiable.  So far I’m totally loving it.  ๐Ÿ™‚ 

I celebrated by registering for my favorite race ever: Beat the Blerch!  It’s happening on Saturday 9/17 of this year and I signed both Gigi and I up for the half marathon!  I am so excited!  If you want in and want to run with me, I’m running on Saturday.  The race sells out quick, so get in and get registered before it’s too late!!!  To be clear, there are races both on Saturday, 9/17 & Sunday, 9/18.  I am doing the Saturday race because, guess what is that Monday?  ZUMBA CERTIFICATION!  LOL!  Isn’t that how I roll?  Yeah.  I’ll do a half marathon on Saturday and nine hours of Zumba on Monday.  It reminds me of my biathalon last year with the 5k and Space Needle climb within four hours of one another!😂

Spring Break Running Streak: Day 3

I woke up this morning with a start.  I looked at the clock, saw it was 7:25 and quickly hollered to the rest of the people in my house that I’d be right down!  I brushed my teeth, pulled my hair into a quick ponytail, threw on the nearest clothes and stumbled downstairs just in time to find out that school doesn’t start for another hour!  Bradley handed my my coffee, we laughed and headed back upstairs where we got back into bed to drink our coffee and wake up together.  An hour later we did head to school with our littles in tow, and left them there.  We skipped back down the street, hand in hand, and got into the car to head to Ikea and eventually to the Goodwill.  I laughed to Bradley that I’m an awfully cheap date- a dollar breakfast at Ikea followed by a shopping spree at the Goodwill!  I was pleased to find a few summer skirts.  I have never been able to shop at thrift stores, but recently I’ve been having really good luck with skirts, pants, jackets and, of course, purses.  When we got home the rain started absolutely dumping, so I decided to run my two miles inside.  Two miles quickly turned into four miles, but I’m not complaining.  I tried out my new apps and they chattered to me while I ran.  I’ll have to remember to turn off all the coaching when I’m in public.  It could scare the heck out of me if suddenly a voice came out of nowhere!  

Underwear, Underoos

 

{The before picture was taken as I shifted from ‘the longest diet in the world’ to my current ‘get healthy and lose weight, already!’ plan that I began back in January of 2012.  I had already lost about 60 pounds at that point!}

Target’s women’s underwear section is like a candy store to me.  When I was a kid, Underoos were the coolest thing ever invented, and the best of the best had to be the Wonder Woman Underoos.  In fact, I believe my obsession with Wonder Woman is directly related to Wonder Woman Underoos- the epitome of awesome to my five year old self in 1978!  They came as a two piece, but not like the traditional undershirt and panties.  Nope.  Our Amazonian Princess deserves more than that! Wonder Woman’s tank was cropped and looked like a bra.  And of course I wanted to wear a bra at the age of five- what little girl doesn’t?  It’s the height of femininity, and a Wonder Woman bra would be a mixture of feminine and badass.  I wanted those Underoos bad.   Alas, we were one of the many families working hard to make ends meet in the 70’s and 80’s by turning off lights, clipping coupons and growing our own food (yes, I mean growing vegetables and cows in the backyard- no joke), and Wonder Woman Underoos cost the same as a multi-pack of boring old days-of-the-week undies.  My secret identity of being Wonder Woman under my clothes was not to be mine.   Until adulthood hit and, apparently, I wasn’t the only one who didn’t get them and the manufacturers stated making them!  So Target, as an adult, is like a buffet of superhero and cartoon undies that are so reminiscent of my Underoo obsession that once I fit into them I had to start wearing them.  Why, you may be wondering, am I telling you this long, involved, Underoos story?  Well, I don’t plan my ‘outfits’ for my progress pictures.  They usually just kind of happen when I am walking across my bedroom, see myself in the mirror and get caught off guard like, “DAMN!  Look at that!  I had no idea!”  So I take pictures right then or force a family member to take them.  Today I was wearing some My Little Pony undies that I got with Jude in mind, my little Brony boy.  I didn’t even realize my folly until I saw the picture of my back!  Oops!  😂 So, enjoy my pony butt.

  

{Those underwear were really unflattering as they wedged tightly, right in there.😱  I know I’m trying for transparency, but everyone has their line!}
I was inspired to do this photo set by my girl Jess over at Runs for Coffee.  She was writing about her nonscale victory of fitting into a goal shirt and mentioned the extra skin she’s starting to see on herself (go check her out- she’s absolutely killing it).  She started writing about sharing her extra skin on her blog, and I realized I haven’t done a saggy skin pic in a really long time!  It is really starting to change.  I definitely think that muscle tone has a lot to do with it, but I also think that my skin is just really shrinking up since its been empty long enough now.  I think my stomach pretty much is what it will be until I shake off that last 20 pounds or get surgery, but I’m amazed at the changes I can see in my back and lower belly!  Wow!  And anyhow, my tummy gave me my natural Wonder Woman symbol.  Who needs Underoos when Wonder Woman’s costume shows up on your body unbidden?  Must be a sign of my natural awesomeness and inborn, Amazon status, right?😋  It’s hard to share pictures like this but it’s kind of a celebration as well as somewhat informative.  I really stressed out about this issue before I’d even attempted to lose weight.  I thought that starting out at 340 meant that my belly skin would dangle around my thighs, my thighs would be nasty and my arms unsightly.  What I’ve learned is that it’s not that bad at all.  Things are annoying at times, especially when my belly skin is trying to sneak out of the bottom of my bathing suit at my thigh tops, and working out with excess belly skin can be a challenge, but it’s obvious to me that the change was a good one, even with sneaky belly skin.  Everything here is tolerable and I feel good about myself now in body, spirit, health and love.  

  
Today marked day two of my Spring Break running streak!  Wahoo!  We headed to St. Edward Park to do the trail.  I’m all about trying new apps, these days, in the name of making cool pictures to post on my website.  Today I tried Map My Run and LOVED IT.  Strava has been my go-to simply because it’s where my data has been compiling.  Map My Run, however, made its case strong, today, when this lovely voice came through my ears at each mile split, telling me how fast I was, how far I went and how fast my total run was.  On top of that I tracked my playlist (AWESOME!) and allowed me to post pictures and comments to a feed.  I was pretty happy to find a new running app…  However, it didn’t have the photo feature I was looking for.  I went online and asked my running community what they use.  You see, I’ve seen people post photographs with their run stats on them along with the route they ran- like an outline- that is layered over the top.  The Nike + Running app, turns out, is the one that does that while fitsnap is fun for something similar but without the map overlay.  Anyhow, it was a fun day to fidget with tech, think about running and think about my body.  Seriously- I’ve come so far!  What a fabulous day and Spring Break has only just begun!  Yahooooo!
  

Yep.  I got a little excited about making these thingies.  ๐Ÿ˜€

The Return of Tamara Shazam

It’s been three weeks of apathy.  Three long, blissful, awful weeks.  It’s a slippery slope, this whole weightloss thing.  The second I step away from it I get pretty freaked out, usually.  But this time I didn’t.  This time I was all like, “meh.”  I mean, I cared, but I rarely take breaks from this project and after four years I think I really needed it.  I trained HARD this winter for my races, it took a lot out of me and I paid the price over the past few week through, what felt like, inactivity and poor eating.  It turns out that, after a bit of reflection, I realized it was neither of those things.  I ate well and exercised a bit.  Last year if I went to Zumba twice a week I counted it as a successful exercise week.  This year if I go to Zumba twice a week, run two times with short distances (two miles per run) and meet my 10,000 steps per day quota, apparently I’m not working out.  I need to remember that it all adds up!  Furthermore, I’ve recently looked at my regular caloric intake and realized that I keep it low!  My husband packs me really nutritious lunches* every day that are low carb, healthy allow me to snack all day long.  We eat healthy meals at night and, even with Easter, I’ve mostly been keeping my eating really solid.  So, guess what?  Three weeks  of intuitive eating later and I still weigh 191!!!  I think I’m getting this ‘taking care of myself! Thing down!

Last night I started thinking like a runner again.  My brain clicked on and I was considering how many runs I wanted to take this week.  I started getting all excited about my streak.  I started telling Bradley about my streak and how I wanted to warm up my body today with a short run and then just see how it goes from there.  I told him how I want to be sure to run two miles per day, but really I’d like to see if I can get a 3-6-9 in there too!  A 3-6-9 is when I run that many miles in that order over a several-days time period, but now I want to see if I can do it in the midst of a running streak- don’t worry!  I won’t push if I feel beat!  It’s Spring BREAK, not Spring Break-My-Spirit!  So, today I took the leap and we did the 2.3-2.9 (depending on how accurate my GPS is that day) loop.  It felt great.  After not running in earnest for so long, my muscles are all rested and healed and today was like butter.  Beautiful.  Tomorrow we’ll do the same and maybe a little bit further, depending on how our bodies bounce back.  I can tell I’m back in the game because junk food sounds gross again and exercise is so appealing and exciting!  It’s so good to feel the return of Tamara Shazam!   

  

*I have the same thing every day.  Almost exactly the same thing for three years, now. 

Workday Meal Plan for Moi:
Breakfast: I drink a big, ole, premade coffee drink that I buy in the carton off the shelf in the refrigerator section along with two blueberry granola bar things around 6:AM.  I eat half the package (four come with it) to keep my carbs low.  When I get to school and the kids are about to come in at 8:30, I eat a vegetarian sausage patty and that keeps me satisfied until 10:00 when it’s…
Snack: Carrot sticks and hummus (my favorite, every day, and I’m sad if we happen to be out!)
Lunch: Four Morningstar vegetarian chik nuggets, half a Fuji apple & three orange slices or 1/4 cup blueberries
Snack: If it’s a Zumba day, I’ll eat a cheese stick at 3:30 and my Pop Chips after.  I know it should be opposite (protein last, carbs first), but I look at the PopChips as a treat that I get after the workout.  If it’s not a Zumba day, I’ll eat my bag of Pop Chips now and save my cheese stick for another day.  Sometimes I save my chips until after dinner so I feel like I get to binge on a dessert and chips.  Sometimes I need that.
Dinner: Varies day by day but is usually salad or broccoli or Brussels (or all three) with something.
Dessert: I like it creamy and dairy.  I’m obsessed with Kozy Shack Rice Pudding and plain chocolate ice cream.  If I have either, I’m happy.  After that?  It’s only tea or water.
9:55: Mad scramble downstairs where handfuls of cashews, smoked almonds, leftovers, cheese and crackers are consumed with wicked abandon!  (This only happens sometimes, but it does happen!  😂)

Unimpressed

This girl is not an Easter miracle this week, for sure.  Nope.  Newp.  Definitely not.   Any ‘uns’ that you can think of pretty much apply to me and my health right now: I’m unmotivated, undisciplined, uninterested…   I mean, I’m mildly motivated and interested.  I have been doing Zumba and I have been running two miles or so at a time for a grand total of six miles this week…  But I’m also not eating the best, not sleeping the best.  I’m worrying too much with the full awareness that I have nothing to worry about and the knowledge that I’m pretty happy, but my brain just keeps going through the files trying to figure out something to be upset about or to worry about.  After my training for the 15k, I still have the enthusiasm to run events but none of the enthusiasm to train for them.  I think I have something coming up at the end of April, but do you think I spent the second it takes to look it up so I can prepare for my race?  No.  Ignorance allows me to be apathetic, for now.  I can panic later, I suppose.  But for now?  Sure.  I’ll have another jelly bean, thankyouverymuch.

  
If I’m perfectly honest, I know what has me in a kerfluffle:

  • This week we have a musical in my second grade classroom with a cast entirely consisting of second graders.  Yes it’s adorable, meaningful and fun, but even the most fun stuff can bring a lot of stress.
  • March is the month in education without a holiday, snow day or planned day off, but also contains at least one full moon and conferences, so it feels like the month that never ends.  As teachers, we feel every single one of those 31 days.  Aiyiyi!
  • The presidential election in our country this time round is about 10,000 times more stressful than I have ever experienced.  This is high stakes, this time, and I haven’t met a soul who is sustaining support for the terrifying, tyrannical Trump, yet there he is, stressing my tail out at the end of every day!  I want it over.
  • Isis.  Why?  Why why why why?  Just STOP it.  I don’t want to think about you and you keep forcing me to with all of these atrocious acts on the world.  Just stop.
  • Money- is there ever enough?  Taxes are due, life needs to be lived and sometimes those two statements and needs appear to be conspiring against one another.

  

Spring Break begins on this coming Friday at 3:25 and this year I feel like I really need it.  I’m lucky/unlucky that my kids have the week at school and my husband is fairly busy, so I will be independent, which is quite rare for me.  What are my plans?  I’m planning to take care of myself.  How?  

  • First, I am going to go for a run every day.  I’m going to try out my running streak for the nine days in a row to see how that feels on me.  I had some feedback in the comments over concern for my streak- that my muscle needs to rebuild and all of that- but I would say this: two miles is not far for attempting a streak.  In fact, I think anything under five miles isn’t that big of a deal for many people, but I’ll readily admit that I don’t think I’m in that crowd yet.  If I were attempting a streak of further distances over an extended time period, then I might be concerned, but 60 miles over 30 days seems doable, just like 18 miles over nine days seems totally doable and reasonable.  Furthermore, any streak I do during my working year will also have Zumba involved which allows for the cross training that people want me to make sure to get.  In that case, like one commenter suggested, it will be a ‘cardio’ streak!  ๐Ÿ˜‰
  • I’m going to hit the weights three times.  I’ve gotten out of the habit of pulling weights and I need to get back into it.  When I’m pulling weights, my arms and shoulders feel better and I sustain less injury.
  • I’m going to the spa one day.  Preferably at the end of the week when I’m all sore and tired from running and pulling weights and needing to lay around in a room full of hot rocks or salt followed by dunks in the cold and hot pools.  Oh yes.  Hours later, I may emerge.  But maybe not.  I might just move in.
  • My kids have their talent show and I get to attend both of them!
  • My lettuce, tomatoes and cucumbers should all be in the ground by the week’s end.  I should also get my cut flower garden planned and planted.  Summer is going to be yummy and pretty at Lj House this year!
  • Sleep.  Then more sleep.  After that?  I plan on sleeping in!  

One more week.  
One.  More.  Week.
I’ve got this.  ๐Ÿ˜‰

Streak

I follow a large number of people on Instagram and Facebook who have running streaks that span years.  One guy just had his second year anniversary of running at least three miles per day!  Man.  Three miles per day?  For two years?  Seriously.  That’s dedication!  And it’s just the kind of dedicated challenge that I like to give myself.  I keep thinking about my own streak, because you know as soon as I saw those other guys I wanted to go streaking myself!  I was sad that I failed to think of this plan in February as I thought the shortest month would be the month with the highest chance of successfully hitting my streak….  So this is what I’ve been thinking:

  • I want to have my own running streak.
  • I think I’ll start with a weeklong streak and see how that feels both for distance and consistency.
  • I think that I need to fulfill a two mile per day running minimum.  I can run more but not less.  Decent distance means something to me for the streak.  Two miles seems short, but with daily running I’m not sure I could endure too much more if I’m also planning on running further distances on the weekends for training purposes.
  • I’d like my official streak to last for an entire month.
  • Summer will work best since my Zumba crew will be more difficult to wrangle when school is out.
  • Eventually I’d like my streak to be about three miles per day.
  • I usually earn 3 miles each Zumba session…  Should I count Zumba as a ‘run’ or should I run a mile or two on top of that?

I think running daily would give me that strength of character that I always like to see evidence of in myself.  I have a tendency to think of myself in not the best light and having proof like this is definitely helpful.  I think running that far, daily, would show me that I’m capable of more an I realize.  I also think that daily running would do a lot for me, training-wise and I’d build a lot of endurance.

  
But then today happened.  And I know, we all have off days, but this was a tough one!  I don’t know what my problem was, but all the way around the loop, every one of those 27 minutes was awful.  I was pulling air like a beginner runner, my shins were tight, my calves were tight…  It was just not that great.  I could have sworn that Bradley was pulling me into running sub-ten minute miles with his fast pace, but when I looked at my timing I was running much, much slower.  Anyhow, I suppose that comes from taking those two weeks off and losing a little bit of my training.  Ah well, it’ll be back in no time, especially if I start trying to hit a bit of a streak!  ๐Ÿ™‚

Spring Sprung

I try to be a machine.  I’m supposed to live like a warrior- a weightloss warrior before, but now a warrior intent on getting her life to a place where I can authentically experience the world for as long as possible, more than just focusing on fat loss…  But even a warrior gets worn down.  I’ve been waging this war on my former habits for more than four years now and every once in a while I notice that I just kind of drop away from it.  It’s not intentional, I’ll just hit a two or three week slump where I sleep a lot, I usually get sick, I step away from my strict eating and exercise and sit down, lay down and eat a cupcake.  In general I get about three days into it and freak out, feeling myself slide down a familiar and slippery slope, knowing that a decade ago this would also be the end of my efforts.  That I’d gain back whatever I lost and lose whatever progress made, but I’ve been riding this merry-go-round  long enough to not be afraid of it anymore.  That’s where I’ve been for the last two weeks, and this time I just let myself.  It was interesting, to say the least.  I watched myself get into bed, get sick and make choices not to run or to worry about my nutrition awfully much.  This time I figured my body was asking to slow down after all of my hard training for the 15K.  This time I decided I earned a rest.  And it was so goooood!

The best part was that it worked out a bit magically.  I kind of ate whatever I wanted and didn’t exercise much at all.  I mean, within reason.  I ate real food, I ate healthy, I just didn’t alter anything to make up for the fact that I wasn’t working out and still ate dessert.   Yesterday I said to Bradley that I was afraid of the scale.  I told him the scale was not going to be my friend, then I impulsively got naked and jumped on before I could give it a second thought.  Like magic, it read 191!  Well, 191.6, but still!  That’s my current low!  I was flabbergasted that I didn’t gain anything!  It seems that the break was indeed in order- my body knew it.

  
This week was a bit of a bear.  It was one of those weeks that looks easy but gets complicated with half days that have conferences, meeting days with lots of listening and celebration days which are fun but are also more work.  It was just busy, so when Tuesday rolled around and I was still a little bit sick, I only did ten minutes of Zumba before I dropped out.  But I knew I had to hit it again on Friday, and I did.  The two Jessicas, Julie and I all danced for one, sweaty hour of Zumba and it was wonderful.  I could feel that I was back.  I focused on precision, with my goal of being an instructor, of trying to learn the moves correctly instead of just getting close to it.  Saturday was my baby boy’s eight birthday, then today we decided to go for a run.  Oh my goodness, the run!  When I’m away from running I am scared of it.  Does it matter than I just ran nine miles two weeks ago?  Nope.  I assume that running longer than a quarter mile will be soooo hard that I freak out, but Bradley hasn’t been running in a few months and I knew that he needed it as much as I did and he wouldn’t be running like the wind, so it felt extra safe and helpful to go out.  The motivation was nice.  We just did the extra large loop with a few cut-de-sacs thrown in for a bit of mileage and it felt just awesome for a total of 3.5 miles.  So good.  I just love running.  I never thought I’d be the guy saying that, but it’s true.  I love identifying as a runner about the same as I love identifying at a Seattlite.   I also love it when my husband, who hasn’t been running with me since about November, tells me that I’m so much faster, now.  Pilgrims’ progress!

Happy Spring!  It’s official!

I’ve Got the Moves Like Grandpa

  
Have I mentioned how much I hate being sick?  Because I do.  Passionately.  This weekend is a thoughtful, reflective weekend, as a result.  A sneezy, runny nose, no exercise, overly-facebooked weekend…

My OB/Gyn who delivered Jude was top notch.  I happened to find myself in his office, on his table during his first day of work at the Everett Clinic in his first post-residency position.  As a newer teacher I totally trusted him to be on the up and up.  Knowing that new teachers have boundless enthusiasm and an up-to-date knowledge base, I figured the same would be true of a newer doctor.  He would be up to date and fresh.  I’ll admit to asking him questions about ‘how many of these surgeries have you done’ and stuff like that, because this was my life and body after all, but we fell into some pretty serious ‘like’ with that doctor as we continued on.  We would have liked to have been real friends in real life had we not had that whole pesky patient/doctor relationship in the way, but we accepted it for what it was- a year of regular meetings with a pretty cool guy.  As firsts, I think he took a special interest in us, too, and we exchanged Mickey Ears with his name on them from our Disney vacation at 5 months gestation for Seaworld souvineers for our girl from his vacation (which we still have).  It was a pretty special relationship that I missed as soon as my six week, post delivery appointment ended.  I’m lucky enough, now, to be friends on Facebook with him and we continue to trade articles and life events in that casual Facebook kind of way.  He is also a runner and I wonder, sometimes, what he thinks of me as I went from 340 pounds, sickly and pregnant during his care to a runner and healthy life-liver.  I would imagine that it’s frustrating, sometimes, to see patients and recognize what is possible, but for the sake of being kind and preserving the trust in the relationship you don’t feel like you can say something…  It’s like a kid who leaves my class as a challenged reader but then passes a hard assessment in fifth grade- there’s a sense of relief, on my part, “Phew.  She did it!  She’s going to be ok.”  I wonder if he feels that, too.  

Anyhow, this morning I was paging through my feed and happened to see a post my Dr. put up and it was about which kind of exercise is best for the brain and it’s neurogenesis– or ability to repopulate the brain with neurons.  As my goal for my body project is all about longevity, maintaining my brain definitely works into my plan.  In essence, the study looked at rats who were subjected to three different exercise models: forced interval/high intensity running for 15 minutes of sprint/jog-repeat, a strength training plan where the rats climbed walls with weights on their tails and the final plan of moderate jogging on a wheel at the rat’s own will.  The study found that the rats trained at intensity levels had added stress from training that undercut the benefit to the brain of the exercise, making their bodies stronger but adding no benefit to brain neurogenesis.  The strength training rats got stronger, but their brains didn’t repopulate at all.  The rats who ran a few miles at their own will, however: 

“Those rats that had jogged on wheels showed robust levels of neurogenesis. Their hippocampal tissue teemed with new neurons, far more than in the brains of the sedentary animals. The greater the distance that a runner had covered during the experiment, the more new cells its brain now contained.”

I find this to be incredibly exciting.  It’s actually brain-smart to be pushing for mileage like I have!  I feel validated at my nine miles pushing 13!  Plus, when I’m out running, I find that my brain just wanders.  My mind explores things and goes on walkabouts that surprise me.  It’s during my longer running sessions that I’m struck with genius, a new post is prewritten, a problem as school is solved, I imagine a new way to share information with my students.  It’s during my runs that I think I’m hilarious and really enjoy being with myself.  It’s where I rebuild my spirit and find my power.  It makes absolute sense that during these times of peace with optimal oxygen flowing and my muscles working in symphony that I feel most whole.  It makes sense, then, that my brain would also use that time to rebuild.  To heal.  To renew.  To refresh.

My mom has always admired my grandfather, who is 94 and the captain of the living long like a badass club.  Here’s a man who maintained golf appointments until cancer stole his painless days, stays active in the Eagles, works doggedly with the Shriners, plays bridge, dominoes, gin rummy, cribbage and poker regularly. He organizes the people and solves problems in his apartment community, still winks at the girls- and he just never stops.  On top of that, we call him The Colonel to friends because he is a military man in many ways, but one of the most important ways was that he ran 2-5 miles daily when he was on active duty, which was most of his life.  He stayed active in brain and body and today he’s still sharp as a tack and, while he has his mobility issues, most of us would feel lucky to have the quality of life he has at his age.  In fact, he advocated and fundraised for a new piece of exercise equipment at his apartment building and is presently on a plan to improve his mobility, and it’s worked.  He can now walk better!  He is a role model to me and many others, for sure.  He’s outlived so many, he’s seen many stories unfold in his lifetime, he has children, grandchildren, and even his great grandchildren who are getting ready to step out into the world and possibly provide another generation for him to see in his lifetime.  My wish is to see as much of the story as possible, just like he is able to, so I really look up to my grandpa and the healthy way he’s chosen to lead his life.

I think I am looking for the balance.  Everything has its place- the long slow runs rebuild and refresh.  They keep our brains active, alive, healthy, responsive.  But without the body, without the strength, you can’t keep your head on right.  If you have a weak hip at 85 and you end up slipping and shattering it, that can be an endgame.   A shattered hip can result in someone going in the hospital and going through a series of procedures that can break a person’s spirit down until they give up, give in and slip away.  There has to be both- brain and brawn.  Strong memory and joints.  I think the high intensity stuff has a place, but perhaps not as much now that I’m in my 40’s.  I’m getting older.  Maybe that’s for the young’ns and I’ll happily let them have at it…  At least until I see another article that disputes this one.  ๐Ÿ˜‰

  
Yes, I know it’s not always a choice, some people have lupus or diabetes or Alzheimer’s or….   But for many of us it is a choice.  Look at that.  Who do you want to be more like?  It’s a real question- I know people who look forward to the moment when they can finally sit down and quit pushing themselves so hard.  Finally, at 74, they can sit down and catch up on all that TV they missed out on without feeling guilty…  But I am banking on travel in my 70’s, like my grandpa, The Colonel, did.  I think I can, too.   I want to still be out and about, bossing people around, getting my finger into all the pies, just like he did and still does.  I want be an active Grammy who takes her grand babies on hikes, to museums, zoos, to lakes, to rivers, who enters them into 5k’s and runs it with them, accompanies them to Disneyland to ride the scary rides while mommy nurses the baby and all that.  I don’t want to sit until my grandpa does and he’s still going so I don’t know how old I’ll be when I finally will get to sit.  I want to be amazing like him, so I’m planning on never stopping, like him.  My time for sitting will be when I stop breathing, and he and I are both hoping that’s a ways off yet.

 I’ll allow my little sick day today, but then I’m going to get right back to it.  It’s my life.  It has to be.  ๐Ÿ˜‰